Confused.

I complicate things because if I don’t people will understand me. This is my defence mechanism. Express something very simple with a very complex idea in hope that only those that the message is intended for will understand it. At the end, I figure that I have been unnecessarily too euphemistic and no one at all understood what I meant.

“What my heart wants, you are that, you are that.” Rabindra Sangeet is soul touching and expresses love in its purest form. Not only are the lyrics spell bounding, the music composition is also deeply expressive.

I will yearn for their touch. Forever. And I am certain of that. I think its best if it stays that way. I may try to initiate something that will hurt me. That’s me. I did this in grade 12. It took me almost two years to heal from that fully.
I feel a connection with them, but they probably don’t feel it at the same level. By level, I mean their love is more about amity than amour.

I have to let my heart have these feelings and not suppress them. But I must also not pay any heed to their suggestions. Let things be the way they are. It shall come to an end.

What if I regret for not having tried? You see how I counter my points! Dare I ask someone else to be the devil.