Wishing Solemn and Hopeful Birthdays

Today is 25th November. The day that I loose control of my heart and then text the person who has blocked me. I find ways to wish Birthday. It is not going to change anything. However, I let this urge take control of me because I keep hoping. Albert Camus is right when he says that hope is only a trap. It is false and should never be given heed to.
What does hope mean? It is a promise of a distant land where our current suffering as a human being will end. We shall enjoy eternal freedom. But now I believe that the present in which we live is the only chance that we have of realizing the truth of life: Death.
Anyways, if you're reading this, "happy birthday", because I did not have the courage to text you so from a friend's Facebook.