Learning

So here I am. 

I thought myself as sophisticated, accomplished and very educated.
But reality has hit me really hard in the face. My miscommunication methods have been laid out in front of me.
My attachment is demeaning me in front of this person, who has explained me the meaning of opening your heart.
" I don't like to share my things to people, unless they ask for it from me", I said.
In the journey towards being a leader, I've started becoming a control freak.
Almost seven months ago, I had accused somebody of being a control freak. Now I am one.
I overestimate my intelligence. I know that I have prejudices, biases and discriminatory beliefs against certain entities.  But I have not improved upon them.
I am pained.
I am not what I have become.
I have belittled myself, by attempting to belittle somebody else.

I want to be saved. 
I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want somebody to be envious of me. I want love around me. I want to spread love around me.


Trust my love. Help me.